Month 1:25, Week 4:3 (Shleshi/Bikkurim), Year:Day 5939:25 AM|
2Exodus 2/40, Messianic Countdown 72/6
Omer Count Sabbath #1/7
Gregorian Calendar Monday 13 April 2015
The Great 2015 Dedication
Continued from Part 24
Answered Prayers and Miracles
This time of repentence and dedication has for me been a time of answered prayers and personal miracles. I came into this time with great expectations and excitement. I had no idea what Yahweh had in store for us, but I knew it was going to be something life-changing and new and that the way we had done things before was at an end because He had a better way for us. Scary but exciting!
And while things did not go exactly as I had imagined, (do they ever, lol) for what He did seemed so much more subtle, however that was because it was deep, which is so fitting for who He is. He works and moves in us in ways that we cannot always see, but the waters were stirred and deep called out unto deep, and we responded with humble hearts and hands raised in surrender.
Vision of the Brazen Altar
On Aviv 4 while in our worship time I had a wonderful experience with Yahweh. As I was praising and worshipping Him, I suddenly saw the people in the meeting standing before this great altar, and on the altar was something so shiny that I was not able to make out what it was.
We stood before the altar, in awe, humility and fear because every hidden thing was exposed, there was no hiding place, and while we could have drawn back, we did not. So we began to weep in repentance, pouring out our very hearts before Him. All this went up as a vortex before Him and soon His fire fell upon us and this vortex went up in flames, not to destroy, but to cleanse. This went on for a time until finally the flames started dying down and in place of the flames were drops of gold, and as it became purer and purer it appeared to be raining drops of gold. These drops of gold seemed to be falling onto the altar into this shiny object as if something were being formed, I could not see it, so I am not sure.
Then Yah'shua (Jesus) appeared before us, behind the altar and we fell to our knees. One by one He came to us and gave us something, what it was I could not see, but it was something so very important and sacred. I thought perhaps it was a ring, but I am not sure, and it may well have a stone or simply a mark. But it signified that we were His, that we belonged only to Him.
Part of Something Bigger
While it was very personal and intimate and our experience with Him was unique, after He gave this object to us each, it was clear that it had to do with something much greater than just our personal relationship with Him, that we were part of something much bigger, and what we had done this day would affect many.
When Yahweh moves the enemy is not happy and will try his best to cause as much chaos as possible, and boy did he. And though I did mess up and fall into his trap by believing some lies and stepping back onto the throne of my heart in fear and hurt, Yahweh used that to His glory and was about to show me some very important truths that up until this time I simply had not been able to grasp.
As I lay in bed that night crying, Yahweh asked me if I trusted Him, I of course said oh yes, of course I do, and so He responded with - 'Then let Me have it, trust Me to take care of you and to be in control of your life'. And so after much complaining and 'You don't understand's, I finally yielded, seeing how silly I was to think I could manage without Him.
An Unexpected Revelation
The next morning, wow! We assembled and truly, what the enemy meant for evil, Yahweh used to redeem and heal! All that had happened the night before was addressed that morning and I sat there with my heart pounding in my chest knowing full well that Yahweh's hand was all up in this! He did a much better job than I could ever come close to doing.
This message - Cleansing the Temple of Tresspasses II - was delivered and it was so powerful and it opened my eyes to new truth and insights and changed my heart! Please take the time to read it!
Surrendering in Tavnith
We cannot change another person's heart, though believe me, I have tried, (and thought I was right in doing so) but Yahweh can and does! This is the heart of my Heavenly Father. He asked me to yield to Him, to surrender lordship of my life, of my heart in an area that I had long guarded because of all of the abuse and hurt in my life. He, as my Creator, had every right to demand surrender, and yet He asked - He will not force us to do anything - and why does He ask to be Lord of our lives? Why does He ask that we trust Him with our greatest fears and hurts? So that He may bring liberty and healing to every area of our lives.
When I surrendered this struggle to Him, I was not only surrendering the outcome, but I was also surrendering the other person involved. He had something much greater to show me in all of this and that was Tavnith and so I got a glimpse of understanding of how tavnith works. It is a vast topic and one I will no doubt be learning for some time.
In yielding fully to Yahweh, I am yielding to my husband, and in yielding to my husband, I am yielding to the perfect will of Yahweh.
This has been a very very hard one for me and while my heart desired it, I could not understand it. I have been a fighter and survivor my whole life. You know, the whole 'fight or flight thing', well I was a fighter, I didn't run, ever. Push me in a corner and I came out fighting like a crazy woman. But Yahweh has done such a work in my heart and life. He has brought much deliverance and healing to my scared and wounded heart.
He has over time, and the shortness or length of time it took depended on my willingness to submit and step down off the throne of my heart and life...but He has done such miracles in and for me. So for me to finally put to death the need for this part of my life is a huge thing. To fully trust Him to do right by me, to trust He and my husband to defend and protect my heart is no small matter, but really, in light of who He is, it is insane not to.
There is pattern and order in Yahweh. Yah'shua > husbands > wives. That is the order of authority and coverings. Fathers and husbands have a huge responsibility, they are where the buck stops in many areas and so we need to honor that and love and support them, praying for them daily.
So yes, I can trust that Yahweh will sort it all out and that He cares about me and in doing so I acknowledge that my husband answers to Him, not me, but to the Creator of the Universe.
A Message to Wives
Hear that ladies!? WE don't have to try and change our husbands, first of all we can't and second of all, it is a sin to try to. We are called to trust - to trust in our Heavenly Father. To trust His heart for us, to trust that He can and will move the hearts of kings, and if our husband is blind in an area, we can rest assured that Yahweh will bring it to light and bring us into all truth.
It never ends does it? Line upon line, precept upon precept, we learn and grow in truth and then we are accountable to walk in that truth. So this is the new truth I am learning to walk in - that Tavnith is not only necessary but it is righteous, life-giving and holy. Trust me when I say, that for my heart to see and understand this is nothing but Yahweh!
An Aviv 9 Vision and Revelation of the Ruach
But it doesn't end there! Yahweh had so much more to show me, correct in me and heal in me. It was the 9th day and we were together in a heart of worship and the presence of the Ruach was there so strongly. I just closed my eyes and entered into worship and I could see Her walking among us. I ran up to Her and asked Her to take me into the Sanctuary, I wanted to grab Her hand and go in with Her, but She told me that She could not, that I had to go in on my own, by myself, for it was a one-to-one encounter.
The Ruach continued to stir the waters, and in doing so all that had laid dormant was being kicked up to the top of the waters, although it was very painful to release, everyone there was so gracious and kind in letting me pour out my heart that was so full of hurts that I had long buried. Yahweh had a purpose in all of this that I could not see at that exact moment, but later that day I knew how loved and blessed I was that nothing would be left unturned, nothing hidden to keep me from entering in.
The Ruach showed me how I had deep down inside believed in so many lies about myself, about my worth and my acceptence to my Heavenly Father. I saw myself as something broken and worthless, because of all the abuse and that He could never use let alone love someone like me. See how the enemy works? Lies, lies, lies.
Moving from America to Scandinavia was a greater shock to my system than I had ever realised. Here I am an outspoken and straighforward type of person living amongst others who are much quieter and guarded. So over time I came to believe that there was something wrong me and that I would never be accepted in Yahweh because I could not be like them. What a load of rubbish. But this is what happens when we put our trust in other things besides Yahweh. We measure and compare and this opens a door for the enemy to cause great chaos and to plant his lies.
Accepted in the Beloved
The truth is - we are accepted in Yahweh through Yah'shua. He loves and accepts us. Also we are accepted in the Beloved, each and everyone of us. It doesn't matter if we are outgoing, or more shy, a bible scholar or one who simply loves Yah'shua with all their heart. There is a place for each and everyone of us. And Yahweh can, and will, use each of us according to His giftings and callings. He is not trying to keep up out, He desires greatly that we enter in and He will purify us so that we can if we will yield in surrender and allow self to die.
Yah give us all a heart that is willing!
"Do not remember the former things, nor consider the things of old. Behold, I will do a new thing, now it shall spring forth; shall you not know it? I will even make a road in the wilderness And rivers in the desert. The beast of the field will honour Me, the jackals and the ostriches, because I give waters in the wilderness and rivers in the desert, to give drink to My people, My chosen. This people I have formed for Myself; they shall declare My praise" (Isaiah 43:18-21, NKJV).
"I will [not merely walk, but] run the way of Your mitzvot (commandments), when You give me a heart that is willing" (Psalm 119:32, Amp.V).