I have a few things to say about vanity that part of me is still struggling to admit, but which never the less is perfectly true. Vanity leads to death! It costs more than it looks like, and the sweet taste never lasts... I know this for a fact because I have tried that path in so many ways that I almost know what is up ahead before I get there, but every time I actually get there I am in for a shock, because the result doesn't remain the same.. it grows worse!
Let me share a little. I have already told about my shameful departure before I returned last summer and the influence the demoness Hecate had on me... well if I am not sorely mistaken she and probably many other demons have another trick up their sleeve that the world has been so dulled to that it isn't only accepted but actually expected. It is female vanity. Yes women have been made beautiful by Yahweh, but it is not our right to either parade it or draw attention to it in a manner that charms people. Such is occultic in origin.
As a girl I was fascinated by Cinderella and beautiful prinsesses. I thought hairdos and dresses were both captivating and precious. This attitude has followed me all the 25 years of my life, and I have tried to immitate what I thought beautiful and avoided the ugly. If this is done on a spiritual level, it is a lasting treasure and well worth having, but in a carnal way it is destructive and to no avail.
Some time ago I foolishly started chatting on-line with an unredeemed man who was single. I had hopes of being able to help him out of his troubles by illustrating to him Yahweh's wisdom and love by sharing His Word and concepts. Witnessing is good.. but only if one has been sent to witness by Yahweh. Solo-witnessing is both useless and harmful. Mistake number one was when I didn't really share what I was doing with my husband because I thought he would be over-cautious thinking I was more fragile than I am. The seccond was that I partly enjoyed the direct interest shown me by the man, even if he knew it could never come to anything 'real' so I thought it was harmless.. at least from my side. And when he still kept up the 'friendship' even after having got himself a girlfriend I felt flattered in a 'safe' way. When I think of that now I realize that it was shameful behaviour from my side and I am in need of forgiveness.
"Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moth and rust do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal. For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also." (Matthew 6:19-21)
The turning point came this morning when Stanisław saw a vision of a lady from a certain nation who was somehow mysteriously connected to my psyche. He also was aware that she was connected to a man. At once I knew exactly who he was being shown and I confessed. I told him how in my last chat with the man he had said he was printing out my picture and even if I told him that I wish he wouldn't do that, and that he was seeking answers and satisfaction from wrong sources and that He should seek Yahweh first of all.. I didn't break contact! Such behaviour is, to say the least, irresponsible, and at its worst plain cruel and harmful, both to him, my husband, myself and whoever else is afflicted.
The reason I write this is to warn people not to repeat what I did. I shall also be removing any pictures to avoid causing any to stumble... Women be aware that your beauty is not yours, and if you parade it.. or any other vanity (also you men).. you are sinning and treading on the ground that leads to death!
I am in need of and have been granted Yahweh's and my husband's forgiveness. I am still aware of Yah'shua's (Jesus') words of warning to the woman who was forgiven of adultery: "Go and sin no more" (John 8:11). That is a commandment I intend to keep!
"Yah'shua (Jesus) said to his disciples: 'Things that cause people to sin are bound to come, but woe to that person through whom they come. It would be better for him to be thrown into the sea with a millstone tied around his neck than for him to cause one of these little ones to sin. So watch yourselves. If your brother sins, rebuke him, and if he repents, forgive him. If he sins against you seven times in a day, and seven times comes back to you and says, 'I repent,' forgive him'" (Luke 17:1-4).
Postscript (2016) - Sadly, she did not keep her own counsel in either this or the previous articles on related topics and is today living the life she once so roundly repudiated and condemned. This was her last article before sliding down the slippery slope of adultery and apostacy.
It does not, however, need to end this way. Yahweh's grace - His undeserved loving kindness - is as boundless as the ocean and if she will repent and make right, there is forgiveness and rehabilitation. But first the enemy of pride which set all this in motion - has to be recognised, confessed and repudiated. So long as their is life there is hope though time is limited. All that she needs to know is in her own writings. Only then, as forgiving, rebuilding trust and being open to change in Christ, can the sweet presence of the Holy Spirit be enjoyed and all be reunited as one and know happiness once again.