Life is boring, I'm bored, there's got to be more than just books and depressing philosophies. There's got to be something to fill this emptiness, if only I could find it... What can I try next? Politics? No, I'm not really into that. God? No, I have some vague ideas about God but I can't really relate Him to everyday life. I don't know which religion I want to be. But I've met these people who claim to really know God, they seem different somehow - that's not for me, I couldn't be like them. Punk rock? Now there's something which has caught my attention! Inside I am mixed up, angry, looking for an identity. I'm a rebel fighting back! Yes, I'll try this.
Facing reality, the ugliness of modern day life, the despair, it's a revolution! people stare, I'm being noticed. A chance to go on the stage, to sing in a group... the music rules my life. Friday night in a bar, Saturday afternoon rehearsals, Saturday night gigs... It's all so new, exciting... Maybe we'll be discovered, get rich and famous... I get the chance to make a record (CD), promises, promises... all fall through. Saturday at home I'm feeling down again, fighting, illness... time for me to leave home. Flat-hunting... no-one wants to share with a punk... I go to a vacant flat in town. An old lady answers the door. She shows me around the rooms. "The girls who used to live here were Christians, you know that's what it's all about finding Yahshua (Jesus)... Do you know Christ?" she asks. I hurry away, that't not for me, I think.
I meet someone like me in a bar. "I live for rock and roll", he says, "It's all I have." "Well, why not?" I reply, but the words almost stick in my throat. Deep down, I know, it's not enough, I'm miserable, I'm confused. Maybe another cigarette will calm me down, and then another... I go home, the group is finished. I've become hardened and closed in on myself. What's wrong with me?
A friend 'phones with "good news". "I've found Yahshua (Jesus)" she tells me. "My sins are forgiven and I have eternal life." "Have I got that?" I wonder. I decide to go to church. The place is packed but without knowing it, that man is talking to me. I hear that Yahshua (Jesus) died for me, I am a sinner - yes, I know that. I know that if I don't accept Him now this very night I am lost... I'm in a daze... In my room that night I fall on my knees and ask Yahshua (Jesus) into my life, as Saviour and Lord. I don't feel different, how can I be sure? Jesus said: "He who comes to Me I shall never cast out".
As the days and months go by, my life has totally changed. I see everything with new eyes. The emptiness has gone, I am free and have a new song to sing, a song of praise to Yahshua (Jesus) who suffered and died to give me this new life.
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