Like the children of Israel, after 40 years of wandering in the deserts
of Mormonism, God released me from the desert soil and planted me in the
Promised Land both temporally and spiritually. On Independence Day,
July 4, 1998, I celebrated my personal Independence.
On that day, I walked out of my 8am to 7pm job at Sun Microsystems that
I had been "programmed" to trust with my happiness and salvation. I made
a commitment to myself to resolve the Mormon puzzle that had troubled me
for more than twenty years, and I was to determine to find the truth of
the matter once and for all. The facts of Mormonism's history painted a
story that I could not comprehend nor piece together. Either I was
going to stay a Latter-day Saint in the "True Church" for good, or God
would need to break down the spiritual mountain and send me into the
plain valleys of truth and righteousness.
I prayed earnestly for an answer, and God led me to my Bible. I read
the promise of Jesus who said that if we have the faith of a mustard
seed, we could move mountains. The light poured into my mind, and it
was clear that Jesus is not talking about physical mountains in that a
scripture. He is talking about spiritual, mental, and emotional
roadblocks that beset us all. If we pray and have faith in Jesus, God
can take any spiritual mountain and cast it into the purifying ocean of
truth, dissolving uncertainty, confusion, despair, and fear. I had read
that scripture a hundred times but never caught the true meaning. I
could imagine and believe that God knew all things, and He knew the
truth about Mormonism. I reasoned, therefore, that He had the power to
unravel the web of lies and contradictions that stood in my face.
So I prayed. I told the Lord that I believed He could move the mountain
of Mormonism and completely cast the conflicting doctrine and historical
roadblocks into the sea of the Holy Spirit, dissolving any falsehoods
according to His will and timetable. My heart throbbed. I felt my
direction moving away from my LDS roots, and I feared making a mistake.
I was willing to do whatever the Lord desired and prayed sincerely that
I would accept the truth, whatever it is. If the Church were true, then
so be it. But God would have to unravel the conflicts for me.
I'm here to witness God is faithful. Within two months, the mountain of
Mormonism was completely moved into the sea of truth, and I've watched
it dissolve bit by bit, concept by concept. God revealed to me the
false logic and the imitation, false sources of the LDS religion to my
The way the puzzle unraveled was unusual. I traveled to Sweden to meet
with a very spiritual man, Christopher Warren, a former member of the
LDS Church and Reorganized LDS Church who had studied the Book of Mormon
intensely for over twenty years. He had written a summary of what the
Lord had revealed to him about Mormonism on the Internet, which is
included in the appendix of this book .
My biggest hurdle at the time was the three witnesses' story. They saw
the plates and the angel and were faithful to their testimony until the
end of their lives. To me, this was the strongest evidence that the LDS
church was true. No Anti-Mormon literature had ever successfully
challenged nor refuted the testimony of the three witnesses, and Chris
astutely identified this as my "Achilles' heel".
But I'm an honest person. I was not about to unplug my roots in
Mormonism until all the major discrepancies were answered. My opinion
was that Joseph had translated gold plates and saw angels with the
witnesses, and I was not budging off that belief! The facts testify
that those events actually occurred in history.
Chris explained to me that false angels can materialize as physical
beings as well as produce tangible objects such as gold plates.
Immediately I thought of the live snakes that Pharaoh's magicians
produced from wood staffs and realized the Bible supported his
statement. It made sense. I had assumed that only true angels had the
power to do work in the physical realm, and this opened my mind further.
Then he showed me a few contradictions in the Book of Mormon that proves
it could not have been translated by the power of God.
But I still insisted the Book of Mormon was God's book. I had a sure
testimony of the spiritual truths it contains. I had born my witness a
thousand times, and I wasn't about to just give in so easily.
Then in Sweden I had several confrontations with false light and
experienced an actually "burning in the bosom". This powerful light
tried to force me to believe in the Book of Mormon. False angels
appeared to me in semi-dream visions, and I wrestled with this "white
light". It was awful. I had been on a path for twenty years believing
in the "burning of the bosom", and I finally received what was promised.
However, the "burning in the bosom" was not what I thought it was. It
was a forced "white light" and the power tried to compel me down a
course I did not want to go.
One night, at about 2:00am I tried to sleep. A "burning sensation" began
revealing all kinds of principles of "light and truth". It enveloped my
entire mind and soul. It started in my head, moved to my heart, and
even went into my fingers and toes! It burned deep within my spirit
like fire. It was not a physical sensation. It was a deep, spiritual
burning from the inside out. It actually felt very good. Warm,
peaceful, and comfortable. It was very delightful. Voices entered my
head, trying to convince me to submit to the light. It was compulsive. I
sensed it was not good, for God would never force his will on anyone. I
was being spiritually raped, and I knew it! When I realized that, all
the "good feelings" became disgusting to me. I resisted with all of my
mental capacity and effort, trying to get the dirty white light out of
me. It lasted for about an hour. I kept holding on to the fact that I
could believe as I chose to, and nobody or no power was going to change
my mind. After a while, I finally praised God for the trial, and lifted
my voice up unto Jesus Christ in praise and thanksgiving, and I finally
found the peace and power to break the demonic spell and go to sleep.
A few days later, I was reading the Bible in my room in Sweden, and
Chris Warren walked into the room and sat down. My Bible was turned to
Genesis Chapter 6:1-5 in the New International Version of the Bible:
"When men began to increase in number on the earth and daughters were
born to them, the sons of god saw that the daughters of men were
beautiful, and they married any of them they chose. Then the Lord said,
"My Spirit will not contend with man forever, for he is mortal, his days
will be a hundred and twenty years." The Nephilim [Nephies or Nephites]
were on the earth in those days-and also afterward-when the sons of God
went to the daughters of men and had children by them. They were the
heroes of old, men of renown. The Lord saw how great man's wickedness on
earth had become, and that every inclination of the thoughts of his
heart was only evil all the time." (Gen 6:1-5)
In the Kings James version of the Bible, Nephilim is translated
"giants". To really understand these verses, the whole thought needs to
be taken in context. These are the times before the flood. The world
had become so wicked, God destroyed the entire earth with the great
flood. I used to think that people went around killing each other,
being angry, and just being "terrible" to each other. But after my
experience with false light, I believe that the evil that covered the
earth was a "self-righteous" attitude of "spiritual giants" that covered
the land. It was covered with the kind of light that exists in the LDS
Church. It is imitation light in which people seek to become "spiritual
giants" as a goal in the mind, without the grace of God. God is not
praised, but man is praised for his great wisdom and strength. God is
viewed as one providing the "opportunity" for this spiritual development
made possible through free agency of man. By choosing the right, men
can become exalted . The concept can become so corrupted, that everyone
believes in themselves that they are "good" and "the sons of God" by
This "spiritual genetics" gives one the ability to become as God is. It
denies the fallen man as truly the sinners that we are, and turns the
grace of Christ into and opportunity of choice. It is the counterfeit
theology of the LDS Church as well as many other groups such as the "New
Age" movements that are now spreading over the earth.
Spiritual genetics denies the blood of Christ as the only justification
for eternal life. Eternal life is not a free gift, but something one
earns through the gift of free agency. Our choices saves us, not our
belief and trust in God.
"As it was in the days of Noah, so it will be at the coming of the Son
of Man. For in the days before the flood, people were eating and
drinking, marrying and giving in marriage, up to the day Noah entered
the ark; and they knew nothing about what would happen until the flood
came and took them all away. That is how it will be at the coming of
the Son of Man." (Matt. 24:37-39.)
This is an extremely important verse to understand in connection with
Genesis 6:1-5. Jesus Christ describes people that "appear" as normal
human beings. They ate and drank, so they had to have worked to produce
food. They married each other and had families. But they "knew
nothing" about what was coming. Why? Because they were full of a
self-righteous spirit, and were "men of renown".
The King James version states these "mighty men" came from the "sons of
God", that procreated with the "daughters of men". They were called
Nephilim or giants.
Now, to a Latter-day Saint who believes that resurrected being don't
fall from heaven, as well as spiritual beings can not materialize, the
concepts that I'm about to explain will sound quite unnatural. The
"sons of God" were not the sons of Adam, but they were fallen angels
that found the daughters of Adam so attractive, they fell from Heaven
and chose to create a race of "spiritual giants" through genetic
breeding. From the notes of the New International Version of the Bible,
"The phrase 'sons of God' here has been interpreted to refer to either
angels or to human beings. In such places as Job 1:6; 2:1 it refers to
angels, and perhaps also in Ps 29:1. (where it is translated "mighty
ones"). Some interpreters also appeal to Jude 6-7 (as well as Jewish
literature) in referring to the phrase here to 'angels'." (Notes Gen 6:1
If the "sons of God" means human beings, then why was it worded, "the
sons God" for male and "daughters of men" for female? There is a
deliberate difference. The men were fallen angels, and the women were
human beings; otherwise the scripture would read, "sons of men".
And the doctrine these fallen angels brought with them is spiritual
genetics-breeding a race of "spiritual giants", the NEPHILIM.
As Chris and I discussed these verses, the word Nephilim shot into my
mind like a sniper bullet piecing a steel plate. To my complete
amazement, Chris told me the suffix "lim" in Hebrew is the plural form
of the word. Therefore, the direct translation is "Nephis" or as the
Book of Mormon renders NEPHITES. I then remembered the words of Jesus
and the days of Noah. Now it dawned on both Chris and myself that these
Nephilim were the same false angels who appeared to Joseph Smith in
fulfillment of Jesus' own word that history would repeat itself before
The Spirit of God touched my mind. I suddenly saw all the giant, golden
statues of angels on top of the LDS temples. "These angels want to be
recognized and worshipped!" I said.
Then I also remembered reading that Joseph Smith originally said that
the first angel that appeared to him called himself "Nephi", but later
he changed it to "Moroni" to better fit the Book of Mormon ending. It
was all making sense. These false angels were so vain; they could not
resist putting their own names as the major character of the Book of
Mormon. (The Book of Mormon contains four books of Nephi!)
Now I'm going to say what must be said. The spirit of the Nephilim is a
false, arrogant, and self-righteous spirit that imitates the gospel of
Christ. It produces "spiritual giants" among men, those of "renown" who
are of "old". The claim of this spirit is that "secret knowledge" and
understanding possessed in ancient times has been "lost", and they,
according to their great light and revelation, have brought back the
truths that existed in ancient times. Every Christian and Mormon should
praise God for leaving such a clear scripture in the Bible to expose
these false characters that dominate and control the LDS religion. The
entire paradigm of the LDS Church is that angels "restored" the "old"
truths of God that have been lost. Joseph Smith became a "spiritual
giant" in the eyes of his people. Joseph Smith is one of their deceived
I'm here to declare that the spiritual code of Mormonism has finally
been cracked open for the first time since 1823, when the false angel
made the first appearance to Joseph Smith. Notice Genesis chapter 6:1.
What did these "sons of God" or fallen angels lust for what? Beautiful
women! And thus we see these abnormal desires appear in the early
history of the LDS faith. This is no coincidence! Think about what I'm
writing! What is the biggest controversy the LDS Church has every known?
It was the sexual practices of the leader, Joseph Smith. He was sealed
to at least twenty-seven women; one of who was only 14 years of age!
Many of these wives he had intercourse with were married women!
What are the chances of the Nephilim having the name Nephi and also
having the identical vice of desiring beautiful women as recorded in
Genesis 6:1, which is exactly what plagued the LDS religion at the time
of Joseph Smith? Do you remember the angel who threatened Joseph's
life with a sword if he did not practice plural marriage? Think! An
angel coerced Joseph Smith! He was spiritually raped with false light,
just as I was, struggling in Sweden against a coerced "burning in the
Joseph Smith was commanded to enter into sexual relationships against
his will. And he obeyed. And the LDS Church praises his obedience!
It is believed the angel was from God! True angels can compel human
beings to marry at the point of a sword!
Nephilim, or false spiritual giants, translates NEPHI(s)! or NEPHITES.
(1+1=2)! The Mormon equation finally closes!
The doctrines of the Godhead, the pre-earth life, and the three degrees
of glory are attributed to the revelations Joseph received from God.
But I submit a different paradigm. These Nephilim angels revealed all
of these "truths" with the sole purpose of establishing a false
priesthood with a spirit of subtle pride and imitation light to deceive
the people. I experienced the "while light" and "burning in the bosom"
first hand, as I wrestled at 2:00am with powers I could not understand
nor break by myself. Only by my praising the name of Jesus and thanking
God could I be released from the compulsion of light. The burning of
the bosom, which I had presumed to be from God, was an imitation power
of these false angels.
For those who are interested in knowing the end of the light of
Mormonism, I have found it. And it is not a good spirit. It is false
light, a kind of "white magic" that Joseph Smith believed and worshipped
until his death.
After my experience in Sweden, I returned home and requested that my
name be removed from the records of the LDS Church. Unfortunately, I
waited a couple of months to go through with the process and tried to
keep one foot in the LDS Church for the sake of my family and the other
in Christianity. Having an LDS background that is traced to the days of
Joseph Smith, my mother, father, family, and wife did not receive my
decision with open hearts. Although my heart was finally calm and
free, yet all my friends and family were full of fear, doubt, and alarm.
I'm sure they thought I was a nut for what I had decided.
My wife took the news very hard. She took it as a personal insult to
her. I had been baptized in Sweden, and she felt I had deserted her.
To make a long story short, I hesitated taking my name off the records
of the church for several months. But I kept having flashes of burning
light and visitation of false spirits in my dreams, and realized I was
messing around with something that was not from God. So, I finally sent
my letter of resignation to my Bishop, and that helped clear up the
false spirits hanging around me.
I have finally found the spiritual happiness, peace, and joy that I had
searched deeply for in the LDS faith but had not experienced. The
depression and stress to live up to the "the priesthood covenants" is
gone, and I find myself returning to simple attitudes and beliefs I had
before my LDS mission. The imitation light is gradually leaving and
being replaced by the most satisfying love and peace in Christ. I am
finally thankful for life. I am finally free. And I thank God everyday
for that blessing! Praise be to God forever!
 Clare Gregory joined the New Covenant Church of God in the summer of 1998
 This article forms Chapter 1 of a book on Mormonism that Clare Gregory has written.